Christmas is over. I loved Midnight Mass even though I was a bit silly and forgot if it starts at midnight that means it ends around 1AM! Haha. I am NOT a late night/early morning kind of person. Still, it was beautiful. They had a full choir, a trumpet, and the low lighting created this awesome mood. It was just... yeah, awesome.
I would like to take this moment to complain a little bit, if that's all right? I'm getting a little bit frustrated.
For the past few months I've been struggling at Mass with some pretty odd physical symptoms. My family suspects it's allergies but I've never had allergies act this way so I just don't know.
When I come to Mass I usually feel all right. Then when Mass begins I start to develop a headache, which is followed by dizziness and then finally when we kneel for the preparation of the Host I have difficult breathing. The headache and dizziness persist throughout but the heavy breathing only occurs when I kneel. It's really annoying, because I love kneeling at Mass. It's probably my favorite part, just being in prayer in God's house...
The headache and dizziness are symptoms that distract me from the homily BUT they are symptoms that only occur at Mass. The heavy breathing however happens whenever I try to kneel and pray (even at home).
So, anyway, I'm not quite sure what to think or what to do but I just keep pushing through and I stay kneeling as long as I can, then take a break, then kneel some more. Which means a pretty interrupted and distracted prayer period but I really pray best when I'm on my knees so I'm determined to press on through.
Right, now that I'm done complaining... haha, maybe I should just try taking some allergy meds before Mass? I suppose that would be the first step to diagnosis!
Have a fantastic day!
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