I was officially welcomed into the Church this past weekend. As I stood up there being introduced to the congregation I realized that this is one aspect I really need to work on - community. I like helping others, I don't like being with others. I'd be that silent benefactor in the distance who never reveals their name if I could. I just don't deal well with interpersonal relationships. After Mass I ran as quickly as I could so I wouldn't have to deal with meeting tons of well wishers.
I appreciate the welcome, I just don't know how to handle it. So they had their special tea and cookies after without me which suits me just fine. :\ But I do feel a bit guilty because it was intended to be a welcoming thing for myself and my roommate.
I've never been very good at mingling and small talk and all that nonsense that goes along with getting to know strangers. But without the mingling and small talk and all that nonsense you don't ever get to know people, do you? Ah well... This whole Christian Community thing and I don't necessarily get along all that well but I am quite sure the Holy Spirit will guide me as He wishes.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not anti-social necessarily... I've just never known how to deal with other Christians. I've spent my life surrounded by non-believers primarily so this is weird and new for me. This is definitely something I need to learn.
Anyway, Christmas is nearly upon us. The Advent is nearly done.
I've never been to Midnight Mass but I anticipate it with baited breath and an anxious heart (because I am still unworthy to meet my savior).
Welcome. :-)
ReplyDeleteI can relate with what you are talking about...I'm not very good at that kind of thing, either....However, as you stated, just let the Holy Spirit guide you as He wishes. After all, the Church is for people of all types, including those of us who aren't "good at mingling".
I pray you have a wonderful Christmas!